A Month in Another World
Trapped inside a body that is weak. Unable to get up and move around independently. A very private person forced into intimate connection with another. Dependent.
Many memories erased; photos holding no meaning; names having no significance. What were once fun moments when a partner would play the piano are painful reminders of what is no longer; best avoided. Little interest in reading or art, once passions.
Absences, when two days at a time can disappear. Aware of what is going on around you but unable to express more than one-word answers to direct questions.
I am one of her carers at the moment. A friend with whom she dined, partied, has gone beyond the boundaries of friendship to cross into the realm of the intimate, a realm we never imagined we would share.
I am here for a month, helping out because her partner cannot lift for a month following an operation. I am spending a month in their world. It is a difficult, challenging, exhausting place. At the end of the month I will walk away to my life, visiting maybe once a week.
A situation like this makes you re-evaluate everything you took for granted, makes you reassess your life. I routinely take time to think how lucky I am compared to so many in the world. I am thinking that more and more at the moment.
My friend is grateful. I am humbled. I don’t want her to feel grateful. I want us to be equals. I tell her I am learning so much being with her: how to hold, how to support, how to be intimate while respecting personal space. I am learning more about her condition. I feel useful in this role. I have a purpose.
I often use this blog space to remind myself and those who read it about gratitude. Never more than now have I felt the need to be thankful for what I have.
The second day I was here I hurt my back lifting my friend. As a result, I have had painful nights and uncomfortable days. Yet I cannot complain. My discomfort is nothing compared to my friend’s and to her husband’s. I need to stay positive for their sakes. We all need to stay positive.
Values and Visions urges us to start from the here and now, the issue at the moment. Our three-way visioning encourages us to project ourselves into the future to where we want to be: fit, well, cured; to identify how we will feel when we are there: happy, optimistic, relieved. Next we reflect on our current situation, the here and now: the pain, the degradation, the memory loss, the sense of unfairness (why me?) and how we feel now: frustrated, angry, confused, humiliated. Finally, what’s better today? Less support needed to get to the bathroom, enjoyment of a good meal, laughter at a silly joke. This is helping me at the moment and, I hope, my friends.
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